LSC- doing better

Hello all!

Wow...sorry about the lack of posting! But...drum roll please......

I have friends!

I know this is crazy, Iowa City has not been kind to me since we moved here almost a year and a half ago and I had a terrible time meeting people in my same life stage and age. I had one very good friend right when we moved here but...well...sometimes things are not what they seem. So...I ate which is what got me into this mess in the first place. But now I have friends and I am involved in our new church and am so much happier!

I have also decided to start training for a 5k this spring! I was inspired by my awesome ISU roomie Torey, she hates running and loves food as much as me so there for if she can do it I can do it! She told me about this couch to 5k app for my phone that tells me when to run and when to walk in the training. Needless to say I am not starting until spring but as talked about in previous posts I have enjoyed running outside and have NO desire to run on a stupid tredmill. Then this summer my whole family and I will run a 5k in Kansas city together!

I am really learning to love myself again. This has been SO hard to overcome. Self esteem is a huge problem to deal with and it takes time but I am learning to get there. Now I have good days and bad days, there are some pictures I wont look at and some people I wont stand next to in pictures but that will all change this summer. :) I will be high school cheerleading ripped again! PROMISE. I have also learned I can do what I put my mind too. If I want to eat only 800 calories in a day and run I will I just have to get in the mind set and DO IT! I mean I am eating yogurt and egg whites for breakfast for goodness sake! I CAN DO IT!

I am still not perfect and I still have some bad days but it is getting easier :)
God is so good <3 and I am SO blessed!

LSC- self esteem

Alright so tonight my self esteem took a bit hit...and that got me thinking.

So after a 4 day weekend/holiday the phones were out of control at work and I had tasks coming out of my ears all day! So naturally after all calls and rx's were done it was 6:15pm and I still needed to grocery shop for the week. So I went to Walmart to take on the expensive time consuming last task of the day. That is where they were. By they I mean the girls that make me sick. Skinny. Long thick hair. Tan. Decked out in VS sweats and brand new Uggs. And for me? Hair up in a messy pony tail, scrubs, tennis shoes and glasses. Let me tell you I was NOT the one turning heads. And of course it ended up the were every where I needed to go. Now for someone who is totally comfortable with themselves this clearly would not have been an issue, and I think if it would have been another day it would have been fine but for some reason today it really bothered me. So then I started to think you know they are all best friends that probably live together, not married but just casually dating around, never been through life altering things and spending all their unlimited funds from mommy and daddy on new clothes and Uggs ect. Then it hit me.

I cant be like them. Not only am I about 20 lbs to heavy to be like them but I was out grocery shopping after a busy day at work where I go every day from 8-5(ish) and work my butt off so my husband and I will have money to pay bills...like grown adults. These girls probably went to a 2 or 3 classes, gave each other relationship advice, took a nap, went shopping and decided to get some more junk food. We could not be more different.

But is this an excuse or the truth? I am a wife. I am a WIFE. It is my job in our family to go get the groceries within budget and make dinners/lunches for the week. I love this job and I would not trade it for anything! But does being a wife mean not getting to be "those girls" anymore? I hear everyone gains 10-15lbs when they get married, is this true?! I have been going over this with myself all night...will I ever get to be those girls again or will I be the fat wife that goes to Walmart in her scrubs after a long day at work.

I left Iowa State for many reasons and one of them was the pressure to be those girls. I dont have unlimited funds (and Im glad I dont, I know the value of money and how to work for it!) I dont have the perfect body but my husband loves me and talks me off the cliff constantly since I am so critical of the unperfectness. I hated the pressure to look like they did but looking back on it... I did. I was them. And I gave it up...now wanting it back?

Is the grass greener on the other side? Married women wanted to be hot twenty somethings again and hot twenty somethings wanting to be married and settled down.

I love where I am in my life! I love getting to be a wife and making crockpot dinners and pies and creating a christmas village! I just wish I could look like what I did 4 years ago...I miss that. No acne or weight from birth control issues. Will I ever get that back?!

LSC change- Day ? -Sit ups...

So I lost track of my days...sorry.

So on Monday night I was supposed to be packing and making homemade pies to take to Des Moines and Kansas City but I had a ridiculous day at work again that was SO busy and I did not want to get off the couch. So I watched TV and did my pintrest pinning for a while but by then I had pretty bad cramps (TIM I know but deal its a funny story) and knew I needed to get up to help it. I know walking around and physical activity helps relieve cramps so I did 100 jumping jacks and then started in on my 200 crunches. Im sitting there thinking this is such a good thing Im up moving around getting my muscles moving so I wont have cramps anyone! What I didnt think about was that after doing my 200 crunches/abs work out I realize I had angered my cramps not made them better.

I thought I was dying. Seriously. What the FRICK was I thinking doing ab work with cramps! SO. STUPID.

So needless to say I laid on the couch again while my body was under attack by my uterus. I had angered it.

So Stupid Elizabeth! Why would you do that!?


Anyways....I just had to share my pain because I could not believe I had done something so stupid. I guess Im not the brightest crayon in the box some days...

In other news....Today is thanksgiving. I will not be good but I promise to work out! My sissy brought her jillian micheals DVD home so I WILL use it! I swear. But we did make puppy chow and its phenomenal...so that will be my weakness. I love puppy chow. :)

LSC Day #28- self esteem update

Today was a sad day. There was no Ghurties in it thats why it was sad.

I also took a nap. :)

I think I am learning to be comfortable in my own skin for now. I feel like until I get to the root of the problem which is the medication I was ok I am only setting myself up for failure. Now don't get me wrong, I still eat my eggs and yogurt for breakfast and eating the correct portion sizes but Im not like a freak about it anymore. I do still do my exercises but not as hardcore... I feel like winter and getting dark at 5pm is discouraging me from that. I know thats an excuse you dont need to remind me BUT I really enjoyed running outside after work...too bad I got into it in the end of Oct and I live in Iowa home of cold and snow. Boo.

I am not happy with myself yet but I am leaning to live with it. I try to avoid things that make me sad like looking in the mirror before a shower and trying on jeans that used to fit. Instead I am now buying things bigger that are more flattering so I dont get my hopes up and those size 4 skinny jeans don't fit I need and 6 or 8 in some styles. Wow...that was hard to say. I want my old body back SO bad but right now its not an option until I can get my stress level and medication under control.

I AMNOT GIVING UP though! I am proud of how I have changed my eating habits and will continue to eat well and not have clogged arteries by the time I am 35 anymore.

P.S. My pedometer fell out of my pocket and died. I started to tear up in the middle of Old Navy and an 8 year old gave me the stank eye. Bite me. My pedometer is my life line and its now gone so shut up skinny 8 year old one day you will gain weight and then try to lose it and need a pedometer too! Ok maybe not...but its a serious possibility.

Ugh RIP pedometer.

LSC Day #27- Shopping success..Finally!

FINALLY GOOD NEWS!!!!

I had a successful shopping trip! This has to be the most uplifting thing that has happened in so long! I went to Old Navy and absolutely WENT TO TOWN on the sale rack and found...are you ready for the 8 that EIGHT new shirts! THAT FIT!!! Clearly by my excessive use of caps this is a huge deal! I have been feel so down about not having anything to wear, nothing really fits well anymore and most of my clothes are pretty outdated any ways so that was a double doozie. Double doozie cookies....mmmhh....anyways.

This is HUGE for me!! I have had SO MANY terrible shopping trips lately that I needed this SO BAD! I finally have shirts that fit but are not super form fitting so I feel comfortable with my self. This has been so long coming! I am soooooo thankful for this! I have not been happy with my clothes for so long! I always have either the 1. I JUST wore this...but I have nothing else that fits 2. well theres my fat belly pooch in this one so I cant wear this. and 3. Everything is so old its not in style anymore! Its amazing what a few new clothes can do for your self esteem...Im still fat but at least its better hidden and I feel better about myself! :)

On top of that they were all on sale with an extra 30% off the sale price.

8 tops + 2 pairs of dress shorts = $83.

Suck. on. that. :)

p.s. decided to change the medication I am on in hopes the does change with work better with my body and allow me to drop some weight.

We will see!

Ahh...Im so happy :)

LSC Day #25(?)- Slackin again...oh and Ghurties

Sorry I have been slacking again! So posting everynight is starting to get out of hand....It will now be everytime I remember :)

Ok confession time: I had Ghurties again. Omg. I love Ghurties.

Now that I got that off my chest I feel better and much less guilty. I did however have a good lunch and no afternoon snack! So in that case I feel like picked and chose where I used my calories...and in the case it was Ghurties.

I did not work out...GAHH!!! I have god intentions I just dont have time. Boo.

I kinda feel like all this is a waste considering the medication I take that makes me gain all this weight has not changed. So I am buying clothes in bigger sizes and nothing form fitting. I will do this until I figure out what do to and if I am going to keep taking it or start something else. Blah. Too big of a decision to make right now, maybe next week? next month?

Ill keep you posted :)

In any case I will still eat like I am but working out is not doing so hot. And yes that pun was intended. :)

LSC Day #23- boring...

Short post...sorry! This blogging everyday is getting hard...sorry I have totally been slacking! But on the up side that means Im doing more in life and not sitting lonely on the couch every night with my food so YAY! :)

I had a good day of eating today! Im not like super food crazy anymore...I actually really dont write much down anymore. One reason for that is I eat alot of the same things every day so by this time I know how many calories they are the other...Im trying to not over analyze it.

I have my eggs and yogurt for breakfast then for lunch chicken and brown rice with salsa and for dinner chili.

Oh yeah...then ghurties. AHHH! So freakin addicting!!!!!!

Its ok because then I did roughly around 300 sit ups and my arms with a few squats. I did not have time to do the jillian video but thats ok I did something and that is what matters! :)

I love my new life style :)

LSC Day #22- Slacking

Hello all!! Clearly I have been slacking and Im sorry!

So I did not post yesterday, it was a busy sunday and I had frozen yogurt again. Yes that is 3 times in one week and yes feel free to judge me- but only if you have had it and know how stinkin addicting it is!!! AHHH so good! :) and I had my chili for dinner. My hubby loves him some chili and of course its a giant crockpot full so I had to help eat it! right? Yes.

Today ran my butt off at work. again. Worked until past 6. again. Did not have time to work out between work and dinner with friends but I dont care Ill do it tomorrow since dinner with friends is much more important. Jillian Michaels will still be there tomorrow. I know she says in my video "change is not a future thing its a present one" but at this present time Im full of a 7 layer dessert bar from Charlottes.

I am doing a good job of eating my eggs in the morning though! I think I get points for that...right?! anyone?!

I also think the reason I am gaining weight and not losing at all is due to a medication I am taking. SOOOOOO.....now I have to decide to keep taking this med that makes me gain weight or take another one that makes my face break out like a 13 year olds. Oh decisions decisions...boo. Either way I am happy with the way I am living my life, I am not like a dieting freak or anything I am just being cautious of what I eat instead of gorging on everything.

there are two words that I am living by now: 1. moderation and 2. discipline. God is helping me learn the meaning of both... not to mention patience. :)

LSC Day #20- IHop

Went to IHop this morning for breakfast (courtesy my padre, thanks dad!) and they not only had the famous chocolate chip pancakes but they also had pumpkin pancakes! Now I dont know about you but that had my name alllll over it! :) So when the server came to the table I sat up proudly and ordered a Slim and Fit spinach,mushroom and green pepper omelet. I do NOT recommend this. The spinach was very mushy and the green peppers were not very flavorful. But I ate that stupid omelet and looked at this picture of the pumpkin pancakes pretending that was what was in my mouth. It really didnt work. Boo.

I had 2 cookies and some spinach dip at a baby shower and then I had Ghurties frozen yogurt this even.

I say it all evened out in the end! :)

I did not exercise today :( I will admit I have been slacking there but I just get busy! I promise I will work out tomorrow! I have not decided if Im doing abs video or the work out one...ah decisions decisions.

I want to be skinny. Is it time yet?!

LSC Day #19- Life Style Change

As I was driving to work yesterday I realized something. For breakfast I was eating egg white and yogurt. Me. I dont know how many things are "not me" in that sentence...the Breakfast part, the egg whites or the yogurt its all so crazy to me! Thats when it hit me. Im not dieting. Im not losing weight because Im not dieting. I changed the way I live my everyday life. Thats it. Right there.

As I wrote on day#1 I ate such junk ALL day EVERY day! I mean truly and honestly I was probably consuming over 5,000 calories a day easy. Thats ridiculous.

Now Im right within the 1200 to 1300 range. I mean yes probably 2 days a week I am a little over maybe around 1500 but still I see that as totally realistic.

As I look back on all that I have changed with my eating I am shocked!! Not to toot my own horn but I have literally changed everything about how I see food. I think of things like "how long is this going to keep my full" or "how many calories is this REALLY worth consuming" or "am I really hungry or am I bored" "what is a food I can eat more for less calories and doesn't take terrible". Just to name a few...

And on top of that talk about the discipline you learn! I mean I used to eat what I wanted when I wanted and how much I wanted. NOT ANYMORE! I now only eat my 3 means and 3 snacks in between in a correct serving amount.

This is a LIFE STYLE CHANGE. I have officially realized I changed the way I live my life through food!

I may not have lost any weight but at least I am getting healthier and making better choices :)

Now to work on the weight loss part....To be continue :)

LSC Day #18- better day!

So I have a lot to say but not much time so...

I ate well all day and had dinner with friends at the Bread Gardens. Very good and tried to stay health with a wheat tortilla for dinner packed with turkey, salami and lettuce and a very small amount of pasta salad then...a monster cookie for dessert!!
It was a little piece of heaven for sure. And then I felt guilty.

I did not work out. I did not have time. I did not leave work early enough. Shocked? Im not.

I have so much more to say...Stay tuned for tomorrow! :)

P.s. today was better and no one made me cry!

Today was a good day. :)

Triage- LSC Day# 17- stress

As you can tell the title is different today. That is because it was a ridiculous day at work and when I sat down to blog I wrote "triage" instead of my usual since this is all I have been typing all day.
Ironically I was going to blog about stress on this entry. Can you tell I am under a little bit?

Needless to say today my day went from fine to bummer to terrible to ending in emotional break down at my desk. I can tell you not only did I NOT lose any weight today I probably gained. This was a hard day. Work-1 me-0.

Its really hard to lose weight when you are under stress and I fully believe this is one reason why I am not losing anything. I have a very busy high stress job that I cant just walk away from at 5pm. I leave when the work is done and always I take things home in my heart. Its part of what I chose and I totally get that, dont get me wrong I LOOOVE what I do!! However some days (like today) when I get told Im a Bi*ch and going to hell is pretty rough. I dont think 'Bi*tch' is a good word to describe me and a person and considering I love God and have a personal relationship with him and strong in my faith I can tell you Im not going to hell either.

So that being said...hard day ended with a wonderful night with two ladies from church getting things ready for Operation Christmas child. I ate 1/2 bag of pop and a mini Take 5 candy bar.

Now it is bed time.

LSC Day #16- My sweet made up dinner

No body panic...my pedometer is found! I thought I lost it last night but after my very smart husband suggested I look in my car- TO-DAH!! There is was! So unfortunately I did not get a step count for the morning and that was the busiest part of my day but oh well thats the way it goes. At least it is found now!

So for dinner I wanted to spice things up a bit so I made up my own dinner! I had a whole wheat tortilla and on it I put shredded chicken, spinach and the Philadelphia cream cheese cooking sensation Sante Fe spread. It was awesome! The tortilla was only 130 cal, since I used 1 tbls of the sante fe spread that was only like 40 cals, and since the spinach and chicken are all protein I consider those "free". I was pretty excited.

Forget you stupid salad- WE ARE OVER!!!

I did not do a work out video today though. By the time I got off work, went to the store and got home it was 7pm. I was so hungry I had the shakes so din-din was priority uno! BUUUTTTT all was not lost, I did like 200 forms of sit ups from the videos so I consider that justified. I will NOT be a slave to working out, I have said that from day one! But I wont get lazy either. Today I did not go hardcore but I did SOMETHING. That is better then nothing.

So I would say today was a good day. Im so glad I stopped weighing myself. I think that was making matters worse. Im trying really hard now to look at what I HAVE done. NOT all the way I have to go and everything I still have to do. Today is about today and just like I tell myself every single day at work- I am only one person doing what I can with what I have.

Today I am content.

P.S. in other news Im brunette now. :)

LSC Day #15- no more scale

So I made a choice tonight that I think will be good for me in the long term.

I have decided to not weigh myself again. Like not at all.

I think Im getting so hung up on what the number on the scale says that I am not see the other results. I do think VEERRRRYYY slowly but surely my tummy is getting flatter by doing my abs and work outs but Im blinded by the # on the scale that I cant see the mirror results. I also think I am living my life around the scale. If its up one day I stress over everything I eat that day and feel bad about myself all day and when I see I havent lost or gained I feel discouraged that all my hard work is a loss.

So with all that being said there is no more scale. I really think this is best FOR ME in my personal situation.

Good news: I moved myself up to the next level on my jillian dvd- holy moly jillian you win! Its amazing she can still make you want to die in your own living room with one set of weights. Not to mention soaked in sweat. Sweat is not a good color on me.

I also made an appt with a diatein for next week! Yay! It was a little more expensive but I dont think you can put a price on my sanity...or my 6-pack to be right?!

LSC Day #14- 2 weeks..what the frick.

Well folks its been 2 weeks since I started this adventure!

I weighed myself this morning before getting in the shower and was up another fully pound. :( So after getting out of the shower I pretty much took another shower in my own tears. I sat on the end of the bed balling to my extremely patient husband who tried so hard to talk me off the cliff I was mentally standing on the edge of. He kept telling me weight fluctuates throughout the week and gaining a pound here or there is normal, it just takes time.

If one more more person says "it just takes time, you have to be patient" I swear I will freak the frick out.

Here the deal: I have been eating healthy and working out everyday for 2 weeks and have not only not lost a pound what so ever but I have GAINED 2 pounds overall. How is this chemically possible? There is NO WAY my body is gaining that much muscle. Serious. This is a load of horse crap. I am literally working off 70-80% of the calories I am taking in. HOW is the weight not coming off?!?! I dont understaaaaaaaaaannndd!!!!!!

There is no reason I have not lost ANYTHING. I mean honestly, I should just start eating whatever I want again because I gained weight eating what I want and I gained it be healthy so I might as well be happy and eat all the reese I want!

But in stead of doing that Im seeing a dietitian tomorrow. Wish me luck.

LSC Day #13- misbehave

I misbehaved today.

We had mexican for lunch and that super amazing yogurt place Gurties for a snack. However did have chix, stuffing and gravy for dinner....did not have as much gravy as I usually do but all the same I dont think gravy is calorie free.

I did not exercise either. Except for walking around the mall with the hubby.

However I did by a heavier set of weights for my jillian work out dvd! And I bought the 30min awesome abs one so I'll give that a whirl tomorrow! Don't worry Ill let you know how that goes tomorrow! :)

I did not have a reese pumpkin though so that is totally a gold star day for me! WEEEEE!!!!!

Im so ready to be fit and skinny...why is it taking SOOOOO LONG?!?! BLAH!

LSC Day #12- Shopping

Went shopping today. Epic fail.

I have ever struggled with clothes fitting before in my lift! I have always just looked around saw something cute, picked it up in a size S/M and called it a day. Now I am looking for things that are bigger shaped, dark colored, empire waisted...you get the picture. I actually had a mini break down moment in the dressing room, I found this super cute mustard yellow dress in F21- it was love at first site. So I tried it on....bad mistake. It was ALOT less forgiving and tight then it looked on the hanger.

WAKE UP CALL.

This LSC could not have come sooner.

I will go back and get that dress one day. Maybe. But if not I will get a cute dress that is equally as awesome.

I did put almost 16,000 steps on my pedometer though so that is very good news! :) I did not work out but I think walking around the mall for 2.5 hours counts as my work out for today. Plus I ate eggs for breakfast. Gold star for me for sure!

LSC day #11- reese's

Today I did my jillian michaels work out DVD and ate not one but TWO reeses pumpkins.

Waaayyyy over calories today. But I needed it SO bad. Tomorrow I will be good.
Promise!

That chocolatey peanut buttery goodness was literally the best thing I have had since....well the last time I had one.

Today was a great day.
:)

LSC Day #10- changin it up a bit

So due to my of my debbie downer post yesterday I received some good advice via Facebook from some good friends and my sisy. After reading the comments and talking with Denny I learned a lot of new things and realized I needed to change some things up.
So my mistakes:
1. not enough calories, I was eating about 900 to 1000 a day-not 1200 to 1300. In doing this I slowed my metabolism down a lot since my body was on the verge of starvation mode, which is not good since I already have a pretty high metabolism anyways.
2. My pedometer shows I burn on average about 400 calories just by walking around the office on a daily bases doing my job plus the working out in the evening. Thats a lot of calories to burn off when I really wasn't taking in that many.
3. I did not know my body burns calories why I am sleeping and while I am doing nothing. I thought when I wasn't doing anything I wasn't burning anything. Wrong. Did you know by sleeping your body burns 90calories in an hour?! I didnt.
4. I was eating healthy...to healthy. I needed a little chocolate in my life.


So I have decided to eat more by making sure I have a morning and afternoon snack, along with one or two sweet treats a day. This will bring my calories up a little more and get my heart happier too :) I will still be working out the same, this wont change and is still necessary to get the results I want. I will also still be keeping my food diary but this is more for my information and to keep track of everything I eat. I would recommend a food diary to anyone! Writing it down and adding up all the calories adds up ALOT faster written down then in my head. (I cant cheat that way)

Im still going to keep up with my life style change...just amp it up a bit :)
Again, all helpful advice is still appreciated :)

LSC Day #9- well...

Well today is tues so it means its weigh in day. I have been debating all day to blog or not and if so what to write about. Needless to say I weighed myself this morning and I gained 1/2 a pound. Yes, you did read that right, I GAINED 1/2 pound. This is EXTREMELY discouraging. I was not sure if I was going to write about it since this really upset me, in fact it ruined my whole day. I had a terrible day with work stress and it really didn't help that was the way it started. BUT when I started this life style change I mad a commitment to myself that I was going to blog about it everyday good or bad since this is real life. This is no joke. Im literally BUSTING by butt by working out 7 days in a row (yes even weekends!) and eating things that rabbits eat while everyone else enjoys chocolate, pizza and monster energy drinks.

I dont understand.

I keep a food diary and write down everything I eat throughout the day. Everything from my egg whites in breakfast to the 5 calorie stick of gum for my afternoon snack. EVERYTHING.

I dont understand.

I have been debating all day to either 1. Give the frick up and order a big mac with extra pick for dinner. 2. Ignore what the scale says and keep up what Im doing since my clothes are fitting better and over all my body is feeling better. 3. CRY.
Well I believe my choices tonight answered that. I did my usual working out and kept to my stupid health food and did not blow it. But I did cry out of frustration.

I will not be giving up. This is real life. I gained when I should have lost, how I don't know. But I can tell you I WILL have a 6 pack.

I WILL.

I will NOT give up.

LSC Day #8 halloween- not cool.

Happy Halloween! :)

So on a diet for Halloween totally sucks! I mean seriously all kinds of chocolatey sugary sweet goodness for practically free and for the first time in my life I will not be partaking. This sucks.

I was a good girl today, 3 egg whites with my super awesome salad...mmm.

I did not go running though. Long story short yesterday I dropped my phone one too many times and broke my SD card so all my pictures and music is gone so there was nothing to run to. Instead I did my jillian michaels work out video...she kicked my butt no doubt but at least I kept up and finished it strong! So yay for that! Until I did my addition abs work and it reset my pedometer. BEYOND PISSED. BEYOND....PISSED. But thats cool...

I really want a Reese's.

LSC Day #7- Sunday Fun Day

Everyone needs a day off! I mean even God rested on the 7th day right? I "rested" today. I ate pretty much what I wanted today and I realized I was only eating it since I was bored. See Denny and my sunday activities are as follows: church, lunch, tv, snack, nap, snack, dinner, snack, bed. Today was no exception, but I did manage to keep it around 1500 calories which was not to bad considering my lunch was a full bag of "butter-licious" popcorn. Denny went on a walk with me around our housing around and I still did my abs and arm work outs. It was in fact a fun day on this beautiful Sunday!

Point being: everyone needs a day off and for the love of everything that is good I DID NOT have a salad today!!!! :)

Tomorrow...back to the grindstone. Egg yokes, salads and 500 calories. Yay?

Stay Tuned. <3

LSC Fay #6-

Hello!

So for the first time ever I did a morning run! Ok by morning I mean like 10am but I slept in on a Saturday and that is so not a crime. I realized this is not for me what so ever! My body and legs were pretty much like "what the frick is going on we were just in bed 10 mins ago and now we are running?!" Yep that's exactly what's up legs so hop to it. They did not. This was more of a walk then a run but I couldn't help it! My legs and brain were so not on the same page. Even so I still walked an extra lap so that made up for the less running.

Breakfast was 3 egg whites and 2oz of frozen grapes! Not to bad :) lunch....hang my head in shame... was a taco salad. No sour cream though and for those if you who know me that's pretty stinkin crazy since I can eat that white creamy goodness by the spoonful! But dinner was a grilled chicken salad so that is good!

Walked around LaClaire IA with my mother in law which was good for my legs and heart today :) yay for beautiful days with loved ones!

I can tell over all I am feel better as far as my body feeling good and having more energy already and its been a week!
To be honest I don't reallly miss allllll the junk I was eating since Im gaining a more healthy and fit body now. But don't get me wrong...I will still be enjoying a big mac once in a while :) Some things will never change!

LSC Day #5ish- Frozen yogurt doesn't count.

Hello all! Sorry I didnt post last night...I have a good reason though!! So last night I got home from work on time and was home around 5:15 (shocker I know right) so I facebook creeped for a few mins then went out for a run! Not just my usual run/walk BUT I added 2 extra laps! HAHA suck on that legs! :) Then was out with friends until midnight. At which arriving home I turned "into a pumpkin" as my hubby says...which means I was super grumpy and fell asleep.

So eating yesterday...It went pretty well. I found out I hate the texture of the yoke of an egg so thats ok since all the good stuff is in the white part anyways! I had a roll of smarties as my morning snack but it was only 25 cal which is less then my carrots and it was sugary so I was totally content. Do you know how long you can make a tiny roll of smarties last? 30mins. Beat that. Then lunch...it was another drug lunch but not just any drug lunch it was Wig&Pen pizza...for those of you who dont think this place is like the "it" pizza place of Iowa CIty. So you know what I did? Go ahead and guess. I ate....my boring stupid salad and my 1oz of goldfish! HAHA SUCK ON THAT! It was reeeeeeaalllyyyy hard and it SUCKED hard but I did it and felt AWESOME! No afternoon snack. Yay me! Then is where things get a little weird...No dinner either 8pm when I met friends for Frozen yogurt but not just any frozen yogurt it was the kind where you pick your own flavor then add your toppings and pay by the oz. Now I did get the low fat 'birthday cake' and low fat 'pumpkin pie' but I DID NOT skimp on the chocolate chips. But its ok because I didn't write it down in my food diary so it doesn't count right?! If you tell it does bite me. Then we went to Old Chicago with friends and promptly on arrival to our table I embarrassed my wonderful hubby and asked for the nutrition list. Where I found out the pepperoni rolls were only 366 cal for 4 of them!! HALLELUJAH!!!! So I ate my four and was totally happy. So all in all if you dont count my chocolate chips from Gurties yogurt (which I clearly do not) it was a great day!

Running- I did it and got the official OK from Denny to buy new cold running gear! Yay!

In other sad news....I dont get to eat cheese its anymore. This is VERY sad since the Dr. I work for and I have a shared love for the small square cracker. Between the two of us usually about every other day I would have a container of cheese its on my desk and we would both munch on them throughout the morning. It wasnt anything big but I always loved having that to share. Yesterday I heard her tell a patients small child " oh your eating cheese its? my nurse and I love cheese its" and it made me sad since there are no more cheese its in my life. But I keep reminding myself this IS NOT forever and I will get to have that container of cheese its on my desk once again.

I am willing to sacrifice cheese its for a 6 pack. This sucks.

To end on a happy note- I am starting to see very small definition in my abs...now this could very well be my imagination BUT I see it and that makes me get up and go running to keep seeing it. Yay! :)

LSC Day #4 Oopps...

Hello all! Today was a better day! :)

Eating went well today again! Breakfast was a smoothie but no eggs (we were all out and no chicken to lay me one), morning snack was about an oz of carrots, lunch again my sweet salad everyone is jealous off with my 1oz of gold fish and babybell light cheese, no afternoon snack and then dinner...oh dinner! My wonderful hubby had tonight off so we went to Buffalo Wild Wings because lets face it- it was MY gift card and I totally rocked out! I had the grilled chicken buffalitos which was only 380 calories with 40calories of medium sauce. Not bad if I do say so myself! :)

I mentioned I had an oz of carrots for my morning snack...I officially hate carrots now. The only veggies I will eat are green beans, zuccini (SP?!?) and carrots...until now. As Im sitting at my desk in between patients Im chewing on these carrots thinking how much I hate the texture and taste so much I want to literally through my bag at my computer since I hate it equally as much. But I didnt. I cant do it anymore. Carrots are officially out. CARROTS YOU SUCK!

On a funnier note...I had a "blonde moment" in the kitchen tonight and I think everyone will get a good kick out of this. So for my super awesome salad I have everyday I cook the chicken breast (speaking of breasts its OCT so feel your boobies!!) and then I put it in a smaller baggie and leave in the fridge all morning so its cold to go with my lettuce. Wellll....I finished up cooking the chicken and I wanted to put it into the baggie but it was still hot so I held the bag next to the pan and kinda just flopped the chicken pieces into the bag over the side of the pan with my spatula. I was not paying attention to the baggie since I was so concerned with getting the chicken pieces directly from the pan to the bag that I did not realize the bag was touching the pan...that was still VERY hot. Well I didnt want the chicken to melt the bag...but that was clearly not the problem...the problem was the baggie on the HOT pan. So I just ruined my kitchen-aid red pan. Sweet.

On a completely different note I went running again! Its getting cold thought so this will not be happening much more...which means I have to do my Jillian Michaels butt kicking video...sweet? No.

Healthy Tip of the day: When going out to eat look at the menu BEFORE you go there, look at the nutritional values first! That way when you get there you will already know what you want and wont even have to open the menu and be tempted to get something you shouldnt! :)

LSC Day #3 NOT COOL!

Super short post...nothing ridiculous happened, its late and Im sleepy.

So day 3...I spent the evening with two wonderful woman from my church so I did not have time to go for a run and by the time I got home it was almost 8:30 and my tummy wanted dinner so I did not do Jillian's butt kick video either. And Im tired so suck it. However spending time with those ladies and working on operation christmas child stuff takes a MUCH BIGGER priority over working out and was 110% worth it! I like to think of as food for my heart. Corny? Yes. Again...suck it.

Good news: I may have failed at working out buuuuuttt I totally rocked on eating though!! :) I did make an egg to eat for breakfast but I then walked off and left it on the counter. Story of my life. But I did not have a morning or afternoon snack and stuck to my boring chicken salad for lunch. YAY me!

Oh and then I threw away the rest of red velvet cake...and then cried.

I (Me, I, MEEEE) got a gift card to Buffalo Wild Wing today...Dennis is pretty stoked about it.

Tomorrow will be better right?

LSC Day #2- Temptations are everywhere!

So its day 2 and I am still alive but feeling pretty BLAAHHH! THERE ARE SO MANY TEMPTATIONS HOLY MOLY!!
Is it legit to wear a bright neon pink shirt that says "Im dieting please don't offer me anything that didnt come from the ground"...? See at my job we get "Drug Lunches" on certain days and today was one, the drug rep brought deli stuff to build your own sandwich with cheese and crackers and cookies for dessert. On top of that one of the Dr. in the office also shared her basket of cookies by design cookies.

Seriously? Not. cool.

So instead of eating all that AWESOME goodness you know what I had? A salad with Romain lettuce and grilled chicken, a babybell light cheese and two yogurt bits. Im pretty sure if there was an olympics of self control I would be wearing the gold right now no joke! The crazy thing is as much as I would have LOVED a sandwich and cookies the pride I felt in myself was even better. I sat in a room of 8 ladies enjoying cookies and sandwiches and I ate a salad. SUCK ON THAT! :)

In other news I also had 2 eggs for breakfast in addition to my smoothie. Now that may not be that big of a deal for most of you but the last I Elizabeth Lynne ate an egg was...welll...I couldn't even tell you. I hate the texture and the taste so much!! But I did it and again felt so accomplished I did not mind choking it down.

But the shocking things dont stop there- I went for a run after work! This I can PROMISE you will NOT be an every day thing but it was nice out and Denny was working a little late so I figured why not. And you know what? It didn't kill me! Here I am- alive and blogging to tell about it!

So to sum up day 2: I have WAAAYY more self controll then I though I did and running did not kill me. Successful day? Sure! :)

P.S. Tues is officially weigh in day which I did this morning. I will spare you the terrible details but it was an all time high for me. Not a day too soon did this fun LSC adventure begin! A week from today my goal is to be down 2 pounds, everyone needs a goal and this is mine :)

Life Style Change Week #1 Day1

Hello my name is Elizabeth and I LOVE food. Wow that felt good to say...but unfortunately it has left me in a tight position. Literally tight. See a few months ago my WONDERFUL husband was laid off and he started to work a part time job which was awesome but the hours were 2nd shift. So there I was home along every night with me, my tv and all the junk food I wanted. This was a dark time in my life and our marriage and I am not proud of how I dealt with it but I did what I knew I could control- I ate. Alot. We did not have any friends in the place where we had moved a short time before, we were not involved in the church we were attending and with Denny gone every night I was extremely lonely....and depressed. This went on for about 3 months, that was at least 90 days of full bags of popcorn, bags of chips, m&ms, little debbie snacks and well you get the picture.

Over the last 2 or 3 weeks I have finally started to notice what I have done to myself. I don't have any energy, my brain felt like a fog and the worst- my jeans stopped fitting. I noticed my "pouch" in front and considering I am not with child this is not sexy nor funny and I knew SOMETHING needed to be done. If I would have noticed this about 100 days ago I would not have just spent a full paycheck on a new "fat wardrobe". BUT since I did not I am here starting my life style change.

My life style change was inspired by my awesome mom who is helping me through this time of change. Its not anything like stop eating for a week or spend 8 hours in the gym to look like the women on the cover of Body Builder USA. This is about eating what GOD himself gave us...not the factories and doing a little exercise. Its based around fruits, veggies and protein with about 20-30mins of physical activity. I know what your thinking "duh thats common senses"...well allow me to show you a usual day of food in my pre life style change life.

Breakfast- cherry pesi, ruffles cheddar and sour cream chips, and a reese.
Morning snack- a kit kat and some cheese its.
Lunch- a cheese burger or whatever was left over from the night before
afternoon snack- a little debbie snack and some more cheese its or chips
dinner-....could be anything...literally anything.
after dinner snack- a bag of popcorn and another little debbie snack, a pickle, some more cheese its and ice cream.

I wish I was making that up. But I'm not...not even exaggerating.

SOOOOO with all that being said here is to my new life style full of things green, red, orange and full of protein! Wish me luck :)

Healthy choice of the day: We all have our TV shows we are addicted too right? Instead of missing them due to a busy gym do continuous sit ups, push ups, lunges or jumping jacks during ever commercial break that way you wont miss anything but will get a 20mins work out in during an hour long show!