Today was a sad day. There was no Ghurties in it thats why it was sad.
I also took a nap. :)
I think I am learning to be comfortable in my own skin for now. I feel like until I get to the root of the problem which is the medication I was ok I am only setting myself up for failure. Now don't get me wrong, I still eat my eggs and yogurt for breakfast and eating the correct portion sizes but Im not like a freak about it anymore. I do still do my exercises but not as hardcore... I feel like winter and getting dark at 5pm is discouraging me from that. I know thats an excuse you dont need to remind me BUT I really enjoyed running outside after work...too bad I got into it in the end of Oct and I live in Iowa home of cold and snow. Boo.
I am not happy with myself yet but I am leaning to live with it. I try to avoid things that make me sad like looking in the mirror before a shower and trying on jeans that used to fit. Instead I am now buying things bigger that are more flattering so I dont get my hopes up and those size 4 skinny jeans don't fit I need and 6 or 8 in some styles. Wow...that was hard to say. I want my old body back SO bad but right now its not an option until I can get my stress level and medication under control.
I AMNOT GIVING UP though! I am proud of how I have changed my eating habits and will continue to eat well and not have clogged arteries by the time I am 35 anymore.
P.S. My pedometer fell out of my pocket and died. I started to tear up in the middle of Old Navy and an 8 year old gave me the stank eye. Bite me. My pedometer is my life line and its now gone so shut up skinny 8 year old one day you will gain weight and then try to lose it and need a pedometer too! Ok maybe not...but its a serious possibility.
Ugh RIP pedometer.
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