LSC Day #15- no more scale

So I made a choice tonight that I think will be good for me in the long term.

I have decided to not weigh myself again. Like not at all.

I think Im getting so hung up on what the number on the scale says that I am not see the other results. I do think VEERRRRYYY slowly but surely my tummy is getting flatter by doing my abs and work outs but Im blinded by the # on the scale that I cant see the mirror results. I also think I am living my life around the scale. If its up one day I stress over everything I eat that day and feel bad about myself all day and when I see I havent lost or gained I feel discouraged that all my hard work is a loss.

So with all that being said there is no more scale. I really think this is best FOR ME in my personal situation.

Good news: I moved myself up to the next level on my jillian dvd- holy moly jillian you win! Its amazing she can still make you want to die in your own living room with one set of weights. Not to mention soaked in sweat. Sweat is not a good color on me.

I also made an appt with a diatein for next week! Yay! It was a little more expensive but I dont think you can put a price on my sanity...or my 6-pack to be right?!

LSC Day #14- 2 weeks..what the frick.

Well folks its been 2 weeks since I started this adventure!

I weighed myself this morning before getting in the shower and was up another fully pound. :( So after getting out of the shower I pretty much took another shower in my own tears. I sat on the end of the bed balling to my extremely patient husband who tried so hard to talk me off the cliff I was mentally standing on the edge of. He kept telling me weight fluctuates throughout the week and gaining a pound here or there is normal, it just takes time.

If one more more person says "it just takes time, you have to be patient" I swear I will freak the frick out.

Here the deal: I have been eating healthy and working out everyday for 2 weeks and have not only not lost a pound what so ever but I have GAINED 2 pounds overall. How is this chemically possible? There is NO WAY my body is gaining that much muscle. Serious. This is a load of horse crap. I am literally working off 70-80% of the calories I am taking in. HOW is the weight not coming off?!?! I dont understaaaaaaaaaannndd!!!!!!

There is no reason I have not lost ANYTHING. I mean honestly, I should just start eating whatever I want again because I gained weight eating what I want and I gained it be healthy so I might as well be happy and eat all the reese I want!

But in stead of doing that Im seeing a dietitian tomorrow. Wish me luck.

LSC Day #13- misbehave

I misbehaved today.

We had mexican for lunch and that super amazing yogurt place Gurties for a snack. However did have chix, stuffing and gravy for dinner....did not have as much gravy as I usually do but all the same I dont think gravy is calorie free.

I did not exercise either. Except for walking around the mall with the hubby.

However I did by a heavier set of weights for my jillian work out dvd! And I bought the 30min awesome abs one so I'll give that a whirl tomorrow! Don't worry Ill let you know how that goes tomorrow! :)

I did not have a reese pumpkin though so that is totally a gold star day for me! WEEEEE!!!!!

Im so ready to be fit and skinny...why is it taking SOOOOO LONG?!?! BLAH!

LSC Day #12- Shopping

Went shopping today. Epic fail.

I have ever struggled with clothes fitting before in my lift! I have always just looked around saw something cute, picked it up in a size S/M and called it a day. Now I am looking for things that are bigger shaped, dark colored, empire waisted...you get the picture. I actually had a mini break down moment in the dressing room, I found this super cute mustard yellow dress in F21- it was love at first site. So I tried it on....bad mistake. It was ALOT less forgiving and tight then it looked on the hanger.

WAKE UP CALL.

This LSC could not have come sooner.

I will go back and get that dress one day. Maybe. But if not I will get a cute dress that is equally as awesome.

I did put almost 16,000 steps on my pedometer though so that is very good news! :) I did not work out but I think walking around the mall for 2.5 hours counts as my work out for today. Plus I ate eggs for breakfast. Gold star for me for sure!

LSC day #11- reese's

Today I did my jillian michaels work out DVD and ate not one but TWO reeses pumpkins.

Waaayyyy over calories today. But I needed it SO bad. Tomorrow I will be good.
Promise!

That chocolatey peanut buttery goodness was literally the best thing I have had since....well the last time I had one.

Today was a great day.
:)

LSC Day #10- changin it up a bit

So due to my of my debbie downer post yesterday I received some good advice via Facebook from some good friends and my sisy. After reading the comments and talking with Denny I learned a lot of new things and realized I needed to change some things up.
So my mistakes:
1. not enough calories, I was eating about 900 to 1000 a day-not 1200 to 1300. In doing this I slowed my metabolism down a lot since my body was on the verge of starvation mode, which is not good since I already have a pretty high metabolism anyways.
2. My pedometer shows I burn on average about 400 calories just by walking around the office on a daily bases doing my job plus the working out in the evening. Thats a lot of calories to burn off when I really wasn't taking in that many.
3. I did not know my body burns calories why I am sleeping and while I am doing nothing. I thought when I wasn't doing anything I wasn't burning anything. Wrong. Did you know by sleeping your body burns 90calories in an hour?! I didnt.
4. I was eating healthy...to healthy. I needed a little chocolate in my life.


So I have decided to eat more by making sure I have a morning and afternoon snack, along with one or two sweet treats a day. This will bring my calories up a little more and get my heart happier too :) I will still be working out the same, this wont change and is still necessary to get the results I want. I will also still be keeping my food diary but this is more for my information and to keep track of everything I eat. I would recommend a food diary to anyone! Writing it down and adding up all the calories adds up ALOT faster written down then in my head. (I cant cheat that way)

Im still going to keep up with my life style change...just amp it up a bit :)
Again, all helpful advice is still appreciated :)

LSC Day #9- well...

Well today is tues so it means its weigh in day. I have been debating all day to blog or not and if so what to write about. Needless to say I weighed myself this morning and I gained 1/2 a pound. Yes, you did read that right, I GAINED 1/2 pound. This is EXTREMELY discouraging. I was not sure if I was going to write about it since this really upset me, in fact it ruined my whole day. I had a terrible day with work stress and it really didn't help that was the way it started. BUT when I started this life style change I mad a commitment to myself that I was going to blog about it everyday good or bad since this is real life. This is no joke. Im literally BUSTING by butt by working out 7 days in a row (yes even weekends!) and eating things that rabbits eat while everyone else enjoys chocolate, pizza and monster energy drinks.

I dont understand.

I keep a food diary and write down everything I eat throughout the day. Everything from my egg whites in breakfast to the 5 calorie stick of gum for my afternoon snack. EVERYTHING.

I dont understand.

I have been debating all day to either 1. Give the frick up and order a big mac with extra pick for dinner. 2. Ignore what the scale says and keep up what Im doing since my clothes are fitting better and over all my body is feeling better. 3. CRY.
Well I believe my choices tonight answered that. I did my usual working out and kept to my stupid health food and did not blow it. But I did cry out of frustration.

I will not be giving up. This is real life. I gained when I should have lost, how I don't know. But I can tell you I WILL have a 6 pack.

I WILL.

I will NOT give up.